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13 June 2007 @ 10:21 pm
So, what the heck is going on with me?  

Where may you ask is the next part of Why Won't You Go? Why haven't I updated pretty much anything from my to-do fic list? Well, there are a couple of reasons. 

#1 - Time. Now that I have joined the full-time working world again, I realize that there's not too much down time once I get home from work. After 9 hours a day, I want to sit on my ass, veg, and not think about anything. Dag...It really makes me appreciate parents. You come home from a long day, you're exhausted and then there are the kids to think of. How do they do it?

#2 - I don't do WIPs. Trying to get through this next chapter has been incredibly hard for me. It's plotty and dialogue driven and not too angsty. Whenever I open the Word document to look at it, I pretty much close it immediately. In short, I am blocked. But not blocked on the story. Everyday for the past two weeks I have written scenes that will appear in later chapters. I think I do one-shots so often because it's how my brain works. I imagine moments in time, instances of intensity and confrontation. For some reason a chronological sequence of events that leads from point A to point B likes to evade me. I also blame the journalism. I have been writing in short form for so long, I've forgotten what it's like to have to really plot a story. All of my pieces are so self-contained, have a beginning, middle, and end that stretching it out is this stupid mental feat.  

I've been really pleased with the scenes I've written so far, but at this point I'm going to have to buckle down on this chapter and get some guidance from the betas because it's really freezing me up. Same goes for my Spike/Dawn friendship post-NFA fic. I started writing it in April and it's just come to a standstill. Over 3000 words of straight description, not a lick of dialogue. What the heck is with that? I think I'm just not really sure what I want to say, what my conclusion is. At least when I get through Part I, I can rest easy that most of the Spuffy in Part II has been written and sitting for nearly two months. 

Also, I have embarked on the joint fic A World of Yes with twilightschild9and jdkitchen, and boy is it a blast. Because we're doing it together, it's like I have a whole cheerleading squad behind me supporting me through it and encouraging me. Also, it's light, humorous, has tons of characters and lots of sex. I like sex. I'm good at writing it. Therefore, I am happy. I had to wait for a friend of mine for an hour the other night, so I took out my notebook, had a vodka tonic while I waited, had a seat, and wrote a later scene for it with two characters I have never written before. 

I think that pretty much sums it up there. I will be supremely overjoyed if I can get through those three fics soon, especially since they have been languishing for 3 weeks - 2 months. I really wanna tackle the s7 Spike/Buffy/Faith fic, but one thing at a time. *pants* 

Oh yes, and I've found that my boss at my internship is a psychopath. I really miss my job... 

Shapinglightshapinglight on June 14th, 2007 10:36 am (UTC)
Oh dear! So sorry about the psychopath.

Also, I sympathise re: the WIPs. I don't do them either and have never posted one because the pressure scares me.

Being blocked on plot isn't nice. Would it help to write a story plan if you haven't yet done that? Then you'll know exactly which scenes need writing to get you from point A to point B.
ClawofCat: Illyriafaceclawofcat on June 15th, 2007 01:49 am (UTC)
Oh dear! So sorry about the psychopath.
Me too! She's a control freak, racist, and has a terrible management style. My first week was terrible. Luckily for me, she was in Chicago on business all of this week so I was sittin' pretty at the office.

I should take a page out of your book and post a long fic after it's all done. That's what I plan to do with my Spike/Nikki, but I figured I would take a chance on this one because it wouldn't devestate me if I screwed up. It's more annoying than anything else.

I don't have a story plan, and I think that's in part what the problem is. I have a general idea about what I want to see happen, and have written some of those pivotal moments already, but it's the connecting scenes and segue ways that are blank. I also haven't plotted anything other than the Spuffy, which needs to happen since Dawn is going to play a huge role, and Tara, Willow and Xander more minor, but important, parts. This is when a beta comes in very handy and I have a feeling there is going to be a round of emails exchanged soon. She writes long fics, so hopefully she'll have some wisdom to impart.
Shapinglightshapinglight on June 15th, 2007 06:18 pm (UTC)
I'm sure you'll work it out and I'll look forward to reading the Spike/Nikki one day.
Herself_nycherself_nyc on June 14th, 2007 02:12 pm (UTC)
Hey, we still have to find a night to have that cocktail.
ClawofCat: nycspikeclawofcat on June 15th, 2007 01:55 am (UTC)
Hey, you're right! Jarod was ass deep in a project for work until the end of last week, but I think he's recovered from the sleeplessness. What days are best for you? I'm fairly flexible since they kick me out of my internship by 5:30 Mon-Thurs. Jarod tends to get out of work later, usually around 7. Any thoughts? I know he's looking forward to meeting up as well. If you want to email him to coordinate, his address is jaroddkitchen@hotmail.com.
Herself_nyc: Buffy with dangling hairherself_nyc on June 15th, 2007 01:59 am (UTC)
It'll have to be on or after the 26th. Mondays and Tuesday are good, as are Thursdays after 7:00, or Fridays/weekends.
ClawofCat: buffy smileclawofcat on June 15th, 2007 02:05 am (UTC)
Okay, I'll let him know. Since his schedule is the least flexible, I'll leave the date to him. Can't wait to meet you. I'm sure the conversation will be nothing less than spectacular. Three angst writers from NYC = trouble!
Herself_nyc: Buffy Girl Power by sandy_sherself_nyc on June 15th, 2007 01:27 pm (UTC)
Cool! I'm looking forward to it.
Swayxheartrockx on June 14th, 2007 03:04 pm (UTC)
Hm... I really wish I had the advice for you right now because every writes so differently. One person likes to make notes, wherease another (as in me) doesn't etc.

I don't know if that helps any but maybe instead of working on a "real" WIP, you could try stand-alones in sequels. Does that make sense?

For me, it's either really short or really epic so I'm no real help there :( But from what I've read so far, waiting for you to figure it out is going to be worth it :D
ClawofCat: faithclawofcat on June 15th, 2007 02:10 am (UTC)
The one-shot sequel idea is sort of what I'm doing with the healing 'verse series. Eventually, there will be a continuation to "Show Me How" to progress their story. I wanted to try something different here and actually make a longer, more detailed fic that brings in characters other than Spike and Buffy. That's also something that's hanging me up - the potential assemble situation that might occur later in the story. I'm just all out of my comfort zone and I think I'm going to need a lot of structure to get me back on the straight and narrow. I'm going to rely on my beta for guidance, so maybe she'll have some words of wisdom for me.

Thanks for the support though! It means a lot.
Karla: familycharmingkarla on June 14th, 2007 05:47 pm (UTC)
awwwwwww sweetie, a psychopath?? *hugs you*
have to waok all day just sucks, I know but take your time to try and relax a little, with the time you will feel like to write and you will. And yes, take care of kids after working all day is something else, uffffffff

*hugs you more*

ClawofCat: sistersclawofcat on June 15th, 2007 02:14 am (UTC)
Yeah, this woman has serious issues and projects her insecurity on others to make her a huge control freak. She was out of the office all this week on business in Chicago, so I had a reprieve and things started to look up. I want to try and get to the beach this weekend if the weather holds up, so if I do, I know I'll be scribbling away while soaking up the rays. That would definately be relaxing.

*hugs back* Thanks for the support, hun. It means a lot.